Thanksgiving

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I miss you. I hurt, and basically no one knows. Maybe if people knew I would't want to kill myself just to be with you. I can't go a whole life time with out you. I don't want anyone to know, because it's a burden.
I think of all the blessings that we received since the day we go sealed. I can't be grateful for them anymore, because all of them have been taken away. My beautiful house, with my beautiful, with my beautiful furniture, my new newly-wed friends, my amazing husband, my amazing ward, being able to be in school and have a well paying job.
You were always so worried. You were worried we didn't have a dresser, then you were worried we didn't have snake, then a place to put the snake. You worried we didn't have a book case. But it was ok. We were going to work your anxiety together we were going to work out all of our problems together.
Now I am ALONE. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you.I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you.I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you.

I can't do the holidays without you. YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO BE HERE! NOW!
 Why did you leave me all alone? We were suppose to be a team, there is no I in team! There is no alone in team. Evidently, there is. I just had no idea. 

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