Dear Redbeard,

Can psychological break downs pass between people? If so you gave it to me. I feel I am being followed by VERY evil spirits. I am terrified. that they will never go away. Make them go away!!! I am doing what I am suppose to, I sleep 9 + hours, I eat 3 square meals, and I get exercise from working with Ms. Leah. Despite all of these I am also reading my scriptures and I usually forget my morning prayers, but I never forget my evening. Demons haunt me, they are very persuasive. I want to follow their prompting to end my life. I would be with you, my suffering would be over. Only thing holding me back is I promised you I would live enough life for two people. I can't go back on my last promise. I pray that I will become Ill with only 6 months to live. Everyone else in the world is praying for life. I wish I could pawn off every part of me that is living and return my soul to you, with you. Someone can use my life to better use then me. BUT, nothing of you is left but me, despite the fact that we had sex two nights before you killed yourself. NOTHING left. I prayed that my period would never come, that apart of my dream I had the night before you took your life would come true. The part about giving birth to that beautiful red headed girl. I don't care that you wouldn't be there for the birth, I just wanted you. ONe little sperm cell of you left. Just one, just something and someone to mourn with. Instead I am alone, with people who will NEVER begin to understand. I need companionship.