Family

We would be making Christmas cookies and handing them out to the band members and people in our wards, our friends. Why? Why did you leave me? I am ready to be a wife and to be a mother. Everyone says I am the most mature and prepared to be a wife. THAT"S BECAUSE I AM ONE! Was one at least. Even people who are 10-20 years older than me are very immature and some of them may be ready to be a mother/father or a wife/husband but they aren't ready for BOTH. I want to be a wife and a mother so badly. I am ready. Now I have o start from ground zero, first dates, awkwardness, closed-off-ness, I HATE THE DATING GAME!

Why did you leave me? I am so alone, I am so hurt, you hurt me. You are my love you were my life you left on the peck of our relationship. I miss you.

I will never get to decorate a tree with you. I will never get to go caroling with you. I will never get to choose a name for our children. I will never get to send Christmas card with you. I will never to have people over for dinner with you. I will never get to live with you.