Lonely and Depressed.

What if I feel drained all the time. And nothing helps me gain my engery. I feel like everything around me is sucking me dry. Those around me seek help, assistance, and I can't provide. I have to do it all day long at work, I can't do it in my free time too. I am so empty. I have nothing left to give. I want to give, I want to help. But I can't.

I just stand stareing off in the distance thinking about how the pain never ends. Wishing someone, anyone would really listen to me. It's not the loneliness that kills me, its that no one listens. No one cares about what you have to say. They just have things to say. I need people to listen to me, truly listen, ask questions, be engaged. I am so sad. I am so alone. I can't crawl out of it. The darkness is to long, the pain is too real, someone come rescue me. Anyone.

I am dreading going to work tomorrow. I have to work all day. I am so drained I don't know if I can take care of 16 little lives from 7 am till 11pm. Its too long, without any breaks, worse of all, I haven't had any time to recharge.

I keep searching for answers and ways to help me regain my energy. But I don't think I will. I think I will just have to sit with the pain and misery. I think I will just go to bed.