Dear You,

I never wanted anyone but you. I miss you. I have gone on several dates now since you have been gone, they have been amazing, thus far. But I miss you, when I said "I do" I really meant it, I meant that I would always love you. That you were irreplaceable. You are still irreplaceable, I still love you. I don't want to love you anymore! But  I can't help it. I want everything back, I don't want anyone else. PLEASE! I love you. For better or for worse, in sickness and in health. I promised, you promised. Please? I want to kiss your lips, just one last time. If I could give you one last kiss, I could get through eternity.

I haven't told you much about the dates I have been on, mostly because I don't know how you think or feel about them. I still haven't kissed anyone since you. I think that is why I have been ok with going on dates. Because everyone knows my situation, and respects my space. They have been so patient, so kind, and just a friend. Which is exactly what I need. Because when I lost you I lost my best friend.

I just want to let you know, I love you. I will always love you, you will never be replaced, you were my happy, I miss you, I want you back.

With all of my heart, forever, to infinity, eternally yours

Carolyn Thornton Grant