“I can't eat and I can't sleep. I'm not doing well in terms of being a functional human, you know?”

I have learned a lot in the short years that I have been in this world. But that's not the point of this blog.... It's to help with the agony I am feeling right now. I am feeling pain that I don't wish on to any other human being, even the ones that don't tickle my fancy.  Life is a balancing act (while on a loop-d-loop roller coaster) of confusions, struggles, and sadness. That's why I have decided to dedicate this blog for my purposes of healing. My husband of 3 months committed suicide only  a short time ago. My hopes are to express myself with letters to my husband, help others cope with the lost of a loved one, and to bring much needed understanding into my life. Dictating words help me process the emotions of which I am dealing with. Thus dictation begins.